Wrong Choices

Everyday we face different situations wherein we need to choose between two or more choices. In some cases, we know what results they'll bring and in some cases, it's the other way around.

When face with two choices, the one may be a good choice and the other may be not. The other may make things better, and then again the other may just make things worst.

So how will we know if the choice we'll pick is the good one or the bad one? the right or the wrong? The answer is simple. We won't.

We won't know which is which until such time that we face the consequences the choice we chose brought forward. And then when we realized that we made the wrong choice... it's too late. Too late to go back and choose the other one. Too late to go back and not feel the pain. Too late to undo things and bring back the way they were. After that we regret it, and after that... we just accept things the way they are now.

But that's life I guess.

People say that there are no right or wrong choices. No good or bad choices. They say, it's how you react to it that makes it a good one or a bad one. So, are they right about that?

What if...

Just what if...

That because of the choice you made you discover something that you shouldn't or you face something that you can't properly react with, a situation that is already way beyond your control or rather way beyond your understanding and then everything or when you do nothing at all, things just go worse? Are there still no right or wrong ones, good or bad ones when face with such situation?

All Hallows' Eve

While everyone in America (and most parts of the world) are out there celebrating (or preparing) for Halloween or what I prefer to call "All Hallows' Eve" (just because I think it's formal), I am in here doing nothing at all as All Hallows' Eve is not that popular here as it is in other countries - talk about boring.

I skipped all my Halloween rituals (not the wearing costume or applying thick make up to look like dead) and other 'thingies' like uploading an edited Halloween profile picture in facebook, or watching horror movies for the day, or group messaging my friends "Happy Halloween", and the likes of it which I actually do weeks before Halloween. I don't know why, but it's like that this year. Okay, maybe I watched horror movies and horror variety shows and all, I mean those kind of things are actually what you can find in almost all channels this time of the year, but I fell asleep while watching them. and Insidious is not that scary.

Yup, I just blogged to say that. I don't even know what to blog at all it's just that I haven't written anything for a month and I feel so unproductive and all. Anyway, here is a little trivia which I think every one knows already.

"All Hallows' Eve was believed to be a day wherein the border between the realm of the dead and of the living is thin enough for the spirits of the dead to travel into the realm of the living."

So... Happy Hallows' Eve guys!!! Enjoy Trick or Treating!!!

great pumpkin carving!

When Words Are Not Enough

Did it ever occur to you?

Did you ever experience an event that all you can think to yourself is, 

Maybe all of us already came to a point wherein you're just there standing, saying nothing at all, thinking to yourself that no matter how you try to say something, you just can't.

This kind of thing, it doesn't just happen when you are falling in love with someone. Although, yes, it does commonly happen when you are in love and it hurts a lot that all you want to do is shout how much it hurts and how much you love a person but you just can't because you are afraid that they might not understand. But it CAN also happen even to the most unexpected scenario... everyday life

Ilocos Tour: Still Not Ready

Okay, it's like 5 hours before the call time for our Ilocos tour and I am still in a bad composure. I'm really nervous as my instincts tell me that something bad is going to happen to me there. My retarded bird brain always gets me into trouble. I just can't relax right now. I am trembling and very, very afraid. I really wish my cousin could come with me, that would make things easier and better. 

This is not my first time for a tour like this, I mean we went to Laguna when I was in high school and everything went fine.

I'm almost finish packing my things and I already bought all the food (hopefully) that I'll be needing for the 10 to 12 hours trip - water, chips, candies, cookies, nuts, marshmallows... all junk foods.

So here's a picture of my packed clothes... and don't judge. I know I'm bringing more than I should for a 2 days, 3 nights tour, but still, bringing just enough clothes won't help a paranoid, bird-brained like me.

Ilocos Tour: My Reasons To Go and Not To Go

For many centuries, I have been waiting for the time to go to the Ilocos Region of the Philippines... okay it's an exaggeration. I have been planning to go there ever since high school. And this Sunday, we are going to Ilocos for our YPrimar Tour. I should be excited and happy right now, but I am not. These are the reasons why and they are divided into to groups. My reasons why I want to go and the reasons why I don't want to go.

I Just Finished Breath of Fire 3

I can't believed I just did.

I finished the game that my older brother wasn't able to (because the Playstation back then got broken)! I feel so... blank. Now what?

Just kidding! I already downloaded Breath of Fire 4 and so I'll proceed to play it afterwards. Anyway here are the screen shots that I got (I screen shoot all the conversion, but I won't show all of them I think they are more than a hundred or so...). These may serve as spoilers to those who are playing or who wants to play it.

Wedding of the Season

Or would it be?

The Season 4 Finale of Drop Dead Diva entitled "Jane's Getting Married" aired yesterday, September 9, 2012. As a big fan and supporter of the U.S. Series, I have my duties and responsibilities not to miss a single episode of it, especially the "Season preludes" and the "Season finales".

Since it was just aired yesterday, and Drop Dead Diva's Season 4 is not being televised yet here in the Philippines, or at least not on the channels available in the cable package we availed, I still have to download each and every episode that comes out every week or two.

On the season finale sneak peak that was shown on last week's episode, Jane Bingum is getting married to Judge Owen French. This is the wedding that Deb or rather Jane was dreaming all of her life. Of course, the wedding isn't complete without Terry Lee (Jane's assistant), Elaine Bingum (Jane's mother) and Stacy Barrett (Deb/Jane's best friend). Also, it is already expected that Kim Kaswell, Jay Parker, Luke Daniels (Jane's new guardian angel), Bobby Dobkins, and I am expecting to see Fred (Jane's former guardian angel) to appear even just for a few minutes of exposure. And of course! Last but not the least, let us not forget about Grayson Kent, who realized that Jane (or Deb) is the most important person in his life now, although he did try to forget her and move on by marrying Vanessa Hemmings who ended up as a runaway bride because of her own securities on Season 3, Episode 4 "The Wedding". Well, as I was saying, let us not forget about Grayson Kent, who I am still hoping upon to stop the wedding and tell Jane that he loves her and take her away. Owen may be sweet, caring and all but I still vote for Grayson (GO TEAM GRAYSON!).

Hopefully, Drop Dead Diva will be renewed for another season or should I say for another more seasons.

Well, my download's already done and so I'm off to watch the "Wedding of the Season" or maybe the most controversial episode for me. But before I do so, here's a picture of what Jane and her bride's maids' looks and dos.

Doesn't Jane look lovely in that gown? And Terry (left) and Stacy (right) looks so fantastic.

Happy Birthday Patricia "Tol" Cajutol!!!

Since I almost forgot Patricia or Tol's (the nickname we gave to her during high school) Birthday, I feel like I should really blog about this... (okay, this doesn't change the fact that you still have to treat me... after all that is Resident Evil: Extinction)

That feeling you get that you are the one who take a shot of this...
Anyway, this is Tol.

So... Tol... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

Thank you so much for making my 3rd year high school more fun and for making me love Taylor Swift before anyone else went gaga over her! I knew that I am always teasing you and the likes of it but... well, I am not the only one right? I mean there is Tiru and Krisha... just kidding! I won't tease you a lot if you are not my best friend so that means you are special!!! I still owe you that free cinema and foods, but I'll make it up to you after the tour! Oh! And I still want to watch Resident Evil you know... I can always find time for you to treat me... :)))))

And again, no pictures yet... but hopefully, after watching RE, there will be!

Maybe...

So maybe one could hate something like "that"...

But sometimes one hates it yet that person doesn't want "certain things" to get deleted just because that person have his/her own personal reasons like...

Maybe that person knows that something like "that" won't ever happen... as in it will never happen the way one wishes or wants it to happen or maybe more personal reasons that no one will ever understand? Who knows? Someone could get unpredictable as the sea or the sky or even the universe.

Don't think that you already know what is inside a person's mind. It doesn't mean that what one is doing is what is inside that person's mind. As stated above, someone could get really unpredictable.

And so... I just really had to take that off my mind... It's not something that I want to get in my mind stuck for millenniums and so on... and then blah blah blah. It's all nonsensical and all. It's just some random thought... or could it be?

"That..."

Some things just happen...

Whether you like them or you don't like them...

Whether you like and don't like them at the same time...

Whether it reminds you of a thing in the past or is something new...

Whether you regret it or you treasure it...

Whether that, and that, and that...

Surely, there are a lot of instances when something happens but we won't know if we would like them or... well refer to the statements above to avoid redundancy.

Sometimes we plan them... or we just let "destiny", "fate", or whatsoever abstract belief of supernatural properties take the lead on making these things happen.

But when we don't plan them and we certainly don't look forward for "that" to happen... things could get out of control. Maybe we'd like them for one second, then again, after "that", we might feel so embarrassed, we feel so... I don't know... regretful.

Regretful because, probably or more so often, "that" involved someone we care about? Or we just don't feel comfortable with? Or someone who we would thought that he/she would think "I am never going to stand near this person again..." after the two of you were surrounded with some people who would just tease and tease and tease and have fun while you are so devastated because you feel so embarrassed, ashamed, or shy towards that person (I don't really know what words to use regarding of that)... something like that. Then again, I may just be a little too negative because we won't know for sure what is inside people's mind especially if they don't even talk much... and I mean once in a blue moon talk. Never mind.

Then something happens that reminds you of some particular "that" that happened in the past and voila! You are suddenly in a melancholic state, your mental processing is quite dysfunctional, and you just can't think of anything other than what happened and you start to worry about tomorrow and about that person like... I don't know... "I would never be able to talk to that person again" thing.

Then again, maybe that's just me and no one ever experienced something like "THAT".

Breath of Fire 3

I know I should be reviewing for my other exams, but I just can't help but to play games, especially PS1 games. Yep, I like old-fashion classic PS1 games. They might have what people say as "crappy" (or that S-word) graphics unlike today's almost life like 3D graphics.

So what am I playing? (quite obvious just by the title of my post) It's Breath of Fire 3 which was release somewhere around 1997-1998. (Yep, it is that old!)

Breath of Fire III Characters: Ryu (the blue-haired), Princess Nina (the winged girl), Rei (the tiger-like guy),
Momo (the girl with long ears), Peco (the onion-like creature beside Nina), Honey (the little creature below Peco),
Garr (the gargoyle-like Guardian behind all of them) and the Faeries (the creature on Peco's head).

The story takes place in a fantasy world where humans live alongside anthropomorphic creatures, and centers the story on Ryu, the last of The Brood (a race of people who can transform into powerful dragons), as he searches the world to uncover the mystery of his people and reunite with his surrogate family. Ryu's journey takes him into adulthood where he is joined by a number of other characters who aid him in his quest. -- thanks Wikipedia. (I'm too lazy to think right now.)

Happy Birthday Jhanina Tiru!!!

Obviously not her cake, It's her grandma's.

It's already August 31 and it seems kinda late... but actually it's not yet... I think. It's not late because her birth date can be August 30 and at the same time August 31 not because of the 'second' differences or microseconds whatsoever, but it is because of some really complicated reasons. Well not that really complicated. Anyway,

No pictures right now... just Nagaraya and a Big Gulp Coke that Me, Sherlyn, and Tiru feasted upon and a Mini Jeepney Birthday Party Celebration (?). Hahaha! Probably on Sunday.

What More Could I Wish For?

I know I shouldn't be staying up late right now with all my quizzes later and all that but I just can't help but to blog about these great things that just happened to me!

Well, that was actually my Facebook status and well, I altered it a little bit... it really goes like this:

"I know I shouldn't stay late with all my quizzes later and all but I just can't help but to watch all those Drop Dead Diva episodes that I missed for the whole three weeks I was uhmmm... busy. Had a very much great time watching them plus I got a "reply" tweet from Jackson Hurst! What else could I wish for before the day ends for me?! :D"

Maybe I altered it a lot... no matter! I'll break things out just as to state properly why I had a delighting, overjoying, overwhelming, elating, and an ecstatic day! (In case someone wondered, yes, I did used the research pane in Microsoft Word 2007.)

First, I woke up today.
I mean how else could I experience all of these if I didn't wake up this err... very late morning? I woke up very late... like 11 or so... but at least I woke up! And even though I was late for that "test" I would still like to thank Angeli for the patience.

Second, I am already done with my report in General Sociology class.
FINALLY! Something to celebrate! Although my partner, Clarice wasn't able to finish hers. She was reporting the first part of her part of the report when the laptop ran out of juice and suddenly black out. Ok, so maybe it's not the laptop's fault but mine. I mean, my part of the report took the whole time.

A screen cap of the title page of our presentation.

Third, I was able to watched the three episodes of 'Drop Dead Diva' that I missed since I was somehow busy with the report and all.
Well, I was just really lazy actually and I took my time to sleep and well, roamed around. But I missed Drop Dead Diva so much that I just had to watched them. Episodes 10,11, and 12, like all the rest of the episodes from Season 1 to Season 4 episode 9, inspired me again to work hard. They fascinated me again with all the commotions going on inside a courtroom, with all the legal processes and the ways how they fight and win cases, and even, most like gave me a peak of what watching porn looks like... unintentionally due to the scene where Luke and Kim were like 'canoodling' with each other in Kim's office. Seriously, not really what I wanted to see since I really like Luke a lot for... well, some other character! Not for Stacy, not for Terry, and absolutely not for Kim! And besides, Luke Daniels is a Guardian Angel, when someone irrelevant of their "mission" knew who they really are, they have to disappear into thin air and make it like as if they didn't exist at all. Anyway, as I was saying, it inspired me again. (Gotta make a post about D3 next time.)

Jane Bingum (Brooke Elliott), the hot protagonist of Drop Dead Diva.

Fourth and foremost, Jackson Hurst (Grayson Kent in Drop Dead Diva) replied to my tweet to him!
I can't believed it. HE REPLIED TO MY TWEET!!! Can I faint now or do I have to save that for my Finac test later? Maybe I'm exaggerating but that is Jackson Hurst! Grayson Kent! And I am a proud supporter of the Jane-Grayson Love Team and a big fan of him! Here is the tweet and the conversation :

Jackson Hurst's reply to my tweet.

The whole... err... conversation. I guess.

So, really! What else could I wish for before my day ends? I don't really know. I am very, very happy with all that. I can't contain my happiness right now. August 28 until 3 am of August 29 rocks!

For now, I need to work on my news clipping plus my two quizzes later in my two major subjects and I really need to work out on how to make my post short since probably no one would want to read my posts because it is long and boring.

The Refreshing Truth

Last Saturday I had my haircut. Well my cousin forced me, tortured (not really) me, and came to the point of no return, inside the Bench-FIX in Robinsons Galleria.

As they cut my not-so-long hair, I'm really at the point of holding grudges not on my cousin but on the hairstylist for not listening to what I said. And the thought of wanting to learn witchcraft and black magic suddenly came out of the blue just as to take revenge on that hairstylist.

But anyway, that's not the point here. The point is I HATE MY HAIRCUT and I ABSOLUTELY HAVE A BAD ONE! 

At first my classmates (not all of them), who haven't seen me with a short hair, were shocked and asked me these questions:

"Kailan ka nag-pagupit?" (When did you take a haircut?")

"Buti nag-pagupit ka?" (I don't know how to translate it but it's like asking... "Why did you take a haircut?")

Of course, I would naturally say that I didn't want to take a haircut, that my cousin forced me. And then they were saying to take of my bonnet (the one I lost yesterday) when I am wearing it. Then they say,

"Bagay mo naman! Tanggalin mo na bonnet mo!"

("Your haircut suits you! Take off your bonnet already!")

but I know that my hairstyle is as ugly as that hairstylist who cut my hair. What I really don't like is for them to say that it suits me, bagay ko siya, ok naman siya... It's like why do they have to say those? To make me feel better? Is it because they don't like my hair long? I know some of them (I won't assume that all of them) think that my hair looks really funny right now. It made me really feel HORRIBLE.

Tiru and Sherlyn told me a while ago that my hair looks bad. I mean they even told me to look at the mirror. I did. That made me feel better. People saying to me that my haircut is bad when it really is. It refreshed me. It somehow made me a little bit confident because now I know that I am not the only one who thinks of it as that. And even though I know that even the two don't like my hair long, at least they know where I am most confident of myself instead of forcing me to take a freaking haircut and risk making me feel bad for the rest of the first semester.

The lesson:

If your friend looks really horrible, like lets say his/her hair, tell them. And stop telling people what suits them because you don't know what they feel on those certain things. You might (like in my case) make that person feel really bad.

P.S. I don't like people forcing me to take haircuts, seriously, it's MY freaking hair! I do whatever I want with it! I'll take a haircut whenever I feel like taking one. You have your own, unless you are bald then you have to wait for it to grow... If it still grows.

Strike.... and You're OUT!!!

Well, I am OUT...

It's not about playing Baseball, it's about all the crap that happened to me this day. In fact, today had just broke my record of the worst day that was recorded in my entire school life.

"To sum it all... it was an Epic Failure."

Just a list of those "STRIKES" that I experienced the whole day...

1. My necklace/souvenir from Bohol got broken.
2. It rained hard while I was on my way to school and I failed to bring those slippers.
3. My socks got wet from jumping to the other side of the road because I was avoiding to get my feet soaked with rain water (nearly ankle high) that filled the road.
4. My newly bought Artwork bonnet got lost in the process of jumping.
5. I was late in my consultation with my Psychology friend.
6. Extra expenses due to printing failures.
7. My partner in reporting was absent due to sickness.

And the worst part of the day is... *drum rolls*

GENSOC (General Sociology) Reporting SUPER DUPER MEGA EPIC FAILURE. Almost all of my FAIL moments happened in  my Gensoc class and I don't even know why!

"WTF! This clearly defines my reactions on
everything that happened as a whole"

But the reporting was, way, way, way worst. We were preparing for it the whole week and... TADA! Not a single thing went according to what was planned.

All the embarrassments from climbing up the window to reach an electric socket that isn't even working several times, my classmates seeing me in my panic mode, interrupted report caused by my own clumsiness and stupidity of plugging the laptop's (which I actually borrowed from Sai) charger on the socket that was not working, stuttering, incomprehensible and chaotic reporting, to causing all the inconvenience on my other classmates because of the extension cord.

I screwed it all and I swear that I already feel like bursting into tears at that time. What took it on a skyrocketing, high level is well... let's just say INSPIRATION was also there.

After all the things that happened, I don't even want to stand up in front of my classmates and continue our report, but there's nothing that I can do but to DO it on Tuesday again. I just hope that everything will happen according to what Clarice and I will plan tomorrow.

P.S.
This is Sai...

Sai Abasolo, my lifesaver!!!

You can follow her here:
sai-abasolo.blogspot.com

She is a great person and a great friend.

THANK YOU SO MUCH SAI!!!

That Possible Insight...

As I was chatting with my friend, who happens to be a Psychology student, minutes ago (currently 1:03 am), I mentioned to her that I "might" have OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder). Might because I'm not sure yet since I haven't consulted a shrink and therefore rely on the information I read in Wikipedia. So much for self-diagnosis. Based on our conversation much ,much earlier before I mentioned about the OCD, she told me I have insights... which means I showed signs that I might really have an OCD or at least that's what I interpreted on what she said.

Excessive 'Hair plucking'
 - an action that is on the Obsessive-Compulsive Spectrum.

 Based on what I read in Wikipedia months ago, excessive hair plucking and nail biting are on the Obsessive-Compulsive Spectrum. And as what was written in Wikipedia:

 "Individuals with OCD are aware that their thoughts and behavior are not rational, but they feel bound to comply with them to fend off feelings of panic or dread."

Excessive 'Nail Biting' 
- an action that is on the
Obsessive-Compulsive Spectrum as well.

I bite my nails and pluck my hair most of the time, usually when I'm nervous or when I am thinking very hard especially during exams, quizzes and even during recitations. And as what was quoted above, I know that what I'm doing is irrational but I somehow find it helpful to me. I can't think at all without biting my nails (and if you are curious, yes, I somehow bite my nails while doing this). I pluck my hair when I am bored but I don't find overdoing it as much as nail biting. Actually, I think I was able to stop myself from plucking my hair unknowingly.

When I first read about OCD in Wikipedia, I told Daddy (a friend I call 'daddy' for some reason) about these compulsive actions that I do. He told me to try to stop nail biting and hair plucking as much as possible and not to think about it since it will make me more anxious (thanks for that daddy!). Well I do believe in what he said besides, the more I think about it, the more likely I nail bite and make the situation worst. For now, I won't hold on to those information that I read and start on doing something about my unstoppable nail biting problem.

Mental Disaster

"Change 'Gmail' into 'Gaming' and that's my routine..."

While people here in the Philippines are having problems with the constant rain and heavy floods, well... I'm having the time of my life. Relaxing, playing DS games, twitting, fb-ing, 9gagging, sleeping, watching TV, and all those unproductive stuff that happen when there are no classes. But not all of the things I do are for my own selfish intentions... I also take time praying for the rain to stop and for people to be safe.

But to get to the main point of this post, ONE WEEK of class suspension was enough to make my mind super-duper-mega unproductive that it might even take a whole month for my brain to work again the way it did before that one week class suspension happened.

Now that classes already resumed and we must go back to being those productive (or unproductive) and waterproof college students of Holy Angel University again, things aren't really working for me. This week hasn't ended, yet all I see is myself being the most unproductive and laziest student in the whole university who is having hard time going back the way things were two weeks ago.

The statement above made it seemed like my first two days were disasters... right? (anyone notice that?) Well to visualize what really happened, here are some of my EPIC FAILURES:

1. I keep on bumping and hitting people accidentally.
2. I can't keep my mouth shut. (I know I'm really talkative and annoying, but this is worse)
3. I was late in my YPRIMAR class last Tuesday... without doing my reaction paper. I did it in Sir Elnel's period and I swear that it has got to be the most stupid and nonsensical reaction paper that I did in my entire school life!
4. I failed my XFINAC3 Prelim Exam... and got a very low grade which is considered a failing grade because I am still an Accountancy student.
5. My mind can't think clearly and is current full of crap which is why I can't think of anything to say when it comes to class recitations.

Well, as you see...the disaster isn't the week itself, it is ME! I tricked my own body and mind to do nothing at all and now I'm devastated on what is happening to me!

I know that I just created this post to whine about my current situation, but it might as well serve as a lesson to people out there (if someone would actually read this semi-long and boring post). The lesson? Oh! Yeah!

Relaxation is a necessity but don't relax too much. Do something productive. Read once in a while no matter how boring it seems (well it's not boring if you are not reading Accounting books or whatever books you use in your course). And one thing, as Sir Tim always say: PRACTICE! PRACTICE! PRACTICE!

And also... try 9gag. Kinda fun there and it makes your mind think... well at least it makes mine think even for just a few hours.